Erratic.

This post title could refer to my blogging and my menstrual cycle.  I am interested to note that it is almost 9 months since I last posted here - a sort of pregnancy, during which I have been reflecting, dreaming and researching - trying to make sense of what is about to happen.  So - what has been happening then, during this gestation?  Well, cycling again - very l -o-n-g ones and  really short ones and the odd normal one.  I go around flinging wide the windows and switching off the heating, while my family sit huddled around the fire..  My sleep is often disturbed and not by children.  I am still nursing, but only at bedtime and occasional mornings.
Emotionally I have felt the normal range of human emotions, but they seem heightened, and I am much more inward looking than before.
My dreams often contain symbols which I can relate to the changes in my body and emotions, and I dream a lot.  I no longer wear makeup or dye my hair, but feel completely happy with the way I look. I have begun to think really seriously about my health - taking up Tai- Chi and making dietary changes.
I have read and studied and  realise I have so much to  learn.
Susun Weed, in her excellent book, says once you ask yourself the question 'Is this menopause' then the answer is a resounding 'YES'.
So now I know.